whoa. the last post.

it's been like, SO SO long ever since I posted anything.
in other words, I'm just too busy LAZINESS.
gosh, exam's over, results's out, there's practically nothing to do in school.

mmm, I'm moving to Tumblr, SEEYAH.

my new family (:

there's a BIG difference in my life, 5 months ago and 5 months after.

this blog post is dedicated to my new loving family in COG. :D

Lyi Ann

5 months ago, it was my first time attending COG.

as shy as I could be, I didn't know anyone there, neither did I try to fit in.

then one day, Lyi Ann came up to me, funny, her first words were not "Hey, what's your name?" , but instead it was "Hey, you okay? You kinda look depressed.". I LOL-ed inside. So we sorta got to know each other, crazy gal :P first impression of you was, VERY CHINESE girl, don't ask me why but you look so chinese. HAHA. But I totally heart you babes (: sisters for life. 

Ashley

oh Ashley, I miss you so much, we should meet up some time again :D

I officially met you in CAMP! I definitely did not regret going after all.

funny times, you and Kaitlyn with the ghost thing, your expression was PRICELESS. My first impression, fun and cheeky :P

it's really nice talking to you, we just click. I couldn't believe you were 12 at first, I mean, you're tall, like really tall, taller than me. -.- 

though we may be in different places now, but our friendship will always last, I'll always be there for you aites? (: heart you too!

Kaitlyn

KAITLYN!! oh gosh, where do I start? You're the cheeky-est, cubit-able, squishable, huggable, lovable, naughty, cute sometimes annoying 12 year old EVER. You are BULLIABLE. roflz, at times when you get teased, it's hilarious, but no hard feelings kay? One more thing, try standing up for yourself next time, I just don't get how you can tahan getting teased all the time. *salutes* another funny thing, you snore at night! HAHAH, with your mouth open. oh oh, first impression is quiet, emo little girl. :P turns out you the opposite of emo, which is. ________ (fill in the blank)

Ken Ee

fats, triple chin,gay,ahgua since I'm writing good stuff about everyone, might as well write yours too. (how unsincere) LOL, kiddz. hmm. met you in camp as well, first impression, don't laugh but Edward Cullen-ish, (LOL.) and your brother is like Jasper, his girlfriend looks like Rosalie, your parents looked like Carlisle and Esme. weird, I know. Then you were that lonely Edward, walking around, alone. I totally love the guitar cover of Saltwater Room that you played in camp, suits the whole "silent night with cold breeze blowing outside" feeling.

but seriously, you're really a great person to hang out with, an awesome brother to me and I really treasure it. somehow, SOMMEE way, you never fail to cheer me up, so kudos dude. Practicing via video call isn't the best idea, delay effects =.=" and one more thing, EXERCISE WOMAN, EXEERRRCIISEEEEE.

Sarah

crazy&wild girl, didn't really knew you much in Cameron, but yeah, we're getting there :D you look really cute in glasses, and I'm serious. the new hip-hop look suits you though, :P boy talk, hmm, awkward but still, teehee. Wii was FUNNNEHHHH, like really funny. I love how you're not like other girls who goes " EWWWWWW mud," or " OH MY GOD, my nail cracked". hearts you lots. :P oh! I forgot, first impression, fun & LOUD girl.


Grace
hmm, first things's first, I LOVE YOUR SMILE :D
it's so sweet and pretty. I'm not saying for the sake of saying, I mean it.
when you smile, it's like the whole room feels brighter. So, SMILEEEE (:
to be honest, we don't really talk much yea? We should get to know each other better ya know, girl talk :P it'll be fun! 


Daniel
again, I don't really know you and Grace much yet, but we'll get to know each other better in time! You are really improving in drums, totally proud of you bro. The last worship was totally awesome! Keep up the good work :D


Yan Yee
MRS. Lambert, :O
HAHAH, you love him, don't chu? XP
I'm glad I met you, you're AWESOME, and yes, you're the awesomest of the most awesome.
the first time you came to church, you were like so cool, <.<
you are seriously a fast learner, you'll be a rocking drummer in no time, girl! LOL. I'm serious.
goats, you have pet goats, COOL. anyways, you ROCK!




To my lovely COG youth,
Life has never been the same after I met you guys, you guys are PART of my life now. And I love you guys so much. By the way, this was done outta randomness, but I mean what I say!! LOL! way to ruin the whole "AWWWWWW" moment =.="


See you guys on Sunday! :P

SAM TSUUIIII.

isn't he just the CUTEST, ever?

he sings, oh kill me already.

school's around the corner and I'm definitely NOT ready for it yet.

projects, homeworks, work, GOSH.

end of speech,

over&out.

oh shit, i'm back! :O

woooaaaaoowwww, the heck, that was a long time.
apparently now, I'm supposed to work, but blahs a little time blogging won't hurt anyone.
first week of holiday is over. which totally SUCKS.
aahh gosh, my homeworks are undone and left to gather dust.
currently obsessed with "Diary" the song.

gbahs, there's nothing much to blog now, mainly because holidays are meant to be boring & lame.
it also the time where your appetite just grows like hell, -.-
i swear I've grown into a meat-eating,chocolate-drooling,kueh-maniac human.
imagine, RAYA KUEH, oh my gosh. and and CHOCOLATE, never been a chocolate fan but,

got me like OH MY GOD.
dammit, oh wells.

as a typical chinese, I eat rice, lotsa lotsa rice.
and, at the wrong time, who eats rice at 12am? I do! I do! (jumps like an idiot)


ANYWAY, recently I had this passion for photography,

the beauty of the world, is amazing.
God is AWESOME!

also, honestly, I really wanna learn to DANCE, (omg what the heck?)

now this is awesome, suddenly, I have interest in B-dance again and let's not forget.

but, sadly, I don't have the chance to learn it, not here.
plus, my mom won't allow it ):
of course, another reason is because..


blahs, my dreams to achieve. EEEYYYAAHHH. -.-

thats it for now :D

beebiiboo.

it has been a while since I blogged, mmm SLACKKKKK.
so anyway, nothing much has happened for the past 10 days, -.-
movie day was fun today, we watched Avatar (Special Edition) in 3D.
blahs, the glasses made my eyes hurt man.

BUT, I am so going to KL for STEP UP 3D, it's like totally MUST man.

mmm, after the movie, we walked around the mall for a while

then Ash's mom came, (BOO) then it's bye bye Ash, Kaitlyn & YY ):

which leaves only me and Ken Ee -__- 

walks up, walks down, "What now?", "I don't know."

HAHA, his shopping style is LOL-able

anyway, fun day bah.
and I have no idea what else to write.


LOLs & LMAOs are overrated man.
*peace* woo woo, meeting up with Taiping peeps (seriously? peeps? -.-), and HOPEFULLY paintballs.
after that, BANGKOK! (woohoo), then SLEEPPPOVAAAA. *jumps like an idiot*


hyperactive man, wooowoo.
&CHEESE. damn they taste good.


rawr.

how great is our God.

the rainbow in the sky to show God's promises is true ❤

God is so wonderful, He made the Earth so beautiful, so special, indescribable.
Amen.

none but Him.

mmmm, ever since the concert, I've been like sick, like really sick sick.
I don't know why, but it sucks man.
the flu&cough is like on & off, one moment I'm fine and the other, NIGHTMARE.
eeks, what's worse, I lost two kg 'cause of this stupiaakkk sicknesses, in TWO days, uncool dude, VERYYY uncool.
if that's not bad enough, I have NO appetite to eat. *screams* T_T foood, I MISS YOU.
BUT, I believe God has already healed me, so DEVIL FLEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!

RAwr, LOL. The Hillsong concert really changed me, I feel like a whole new person.
I don't know is it me, but my temper has been pretty calm, like no more blowing up for little things.
so that's good news right? :D
although my sister had some problems with me, well I'm sorry, I seriously don't know how to make it up to you, like seriously.

haven't been keeping with my blog lately, honestly, there's nothing to write, everything is too normal to write, blahs. *sneeze* if flu & cough were like those cartoon life size cell-like creatures, i'mma slaaapppppp theemm harrddd maaannnn!!!! use some sort of medicine bazooka, and like BOOOOMMMMMMMM, *evil laughs* -___-

I'm so in love with christian songs right now, like I'm on fire for God man!!!! WOOOOHH, amen for that. The second night of the concert, which I did not attend, according to my friend, the pastor mentioned that when you wake up the the morning, look at yourself in the mirror every morning and tell yourself, YOU ARE DESTINED FOR GREATNESS. Walk out of your room with a mission. Make the effort to be different so people will notice, when people ask you, How are you? You say, "I'm living the dream! Or maybe, I'm feeling phenomenal! Then people will start to see that you're different and they will want to know why you're different, and thats the opportunity to share our lovely God with them. :D amen.

I WILL NOT BE MOVED FOR GOD IS MY STRENGTH AND MY HEALER!

(p.s seriously, you are very cute, LOL)

&&BOOM!

hillsong. God. love.

Pastor Josh (:



the concert was superb, amazing, indescribable.
I could really feel God's presence there.
tremendous experience, imagine, over 4k people came last night! on the very FIRST NIGHT!
it's a pity I'm unable to go tonight but I believe that many lives will be saved tonight.
many had accepted christ to their lives last night, I was really glad.
fun night, we were all jumping&screaming like there's no tomorrow.
it was PACKED, very packed.
awesome preaching by Pastor Josh, funny story.

his message : be yourself, with all the so called groups and cliques going on in the society, some of us just find it hard to "fit in", but we need to realize that, some of us were not meant to be ordinary but the EXTRAORDINARY ones. Most of us are afraid of being judged by others on the outside, but He does not judge, and he loves us for who we are. The fear of being judged by others in us may lead to doing stupid and reckless things, furthermore the regrets.

oh oh, check out their cool wristband,


managed to meet up with Michelle as well :D
saw quite a number of old friends at the concert too.
aaah, memories.

it's thunder-ing here now, that's it for now!
&&xoxos.

what a day indeed

mmm, funny story last night. mmn.
mmm, don't need to get to that.

had my usuals today, school, stocks, jogging? hmm.
while we were on our way back, mom came to get us.
my second sister was robbed at the traffic light at SS2, they smashed her car window and took her things. ):

thank you Michelle for the prayer:

Lord Jesus, indeed you save us in every situation and you have kept Ashlee's sister safe even at the incident. Lord let your shalom peace comfort her right now, and your love drive away the fear in her. We plead your holy blood over her to keep her safe at all times. Your favour is highly over her, she will get her renewal of all important cards & documents easily and quickly. All shall be restored easily and quickly because of Your favour over her. Thank you for your protection. In Jesus' Name, AMEN.

and to those who prayed for her, thank you as well.

Picture of the day:

bwahaha.

PERASAANNN siaa.

draft on the 2nd August

now.


eeks, not agaaainn.
was talking to my dad yesterday while jogging, my biggest regret, quitting ballet and breakdance.
blahs, miss those times.

Je suis encore très confus pour l'instant, mais que dois-je faire?
some things are meant to be untold.

me & Celine were talking about primary memories during KH periods.
sweet,sweet memories. silly us, stupid,stupid classmates. plain adorkable.

now I'm the clueless one, hmm.
&&taz.

pfft. asians.

proud to be an asian ❤
whoa, super drunk last night.
and, hmm. ><


this is cute. hmm.

yours truly is CONFUSED ><

breathe.

"it's getting worse, very much worse.
what's going on?"


draft on the 20th July 2010.

whoa, my EMOments.
freaky, teenage mood swings are NOT fun, at all.
so we won second place in debate yesterday, we did pretty well, my opinion.
tho I have to admit, it was kind of exciting.
with my heart going "..thum thum thum thum.." like it's going 300km/h.

this is what seriousness should look like.


convincing? I KNOW.

nothing much happened during this week, just debate practice.
blogyoulater.

love.

Alexandre Desplat, ❤
his melodies are incredible, New Moon The Score.
an album filled with his lullabies in New Moon.
the wonders of a piano and a talented person.

I jerked out a couple of tears before I slept last night.
just not feeling me these few days.
I have no reasons to feel sad or frustrated, against all odd, I am.
having to fake a smile in school, laugh like everything's okay, pretty much tiring.
my senses tell me I'll be fine, and I will. eventually.
perhaps, again my teenage hormones.
so please take note, do not blow my bubble.

piano melodies are like medicine to my soul now.
He's holding me in His arms and I'll be okay.
life doesn't seem realistic, now what I just said was plain crap.
it just feels that way, to my of course.

sighs.
enough now, off to get my debate stuffs.
&&ughbye.

hmm.

vampires, Vampire Diaries, Twilight,
oh, Twilight.
Eclipse was a major fail.
I mean, seriously, it's like MEGA snog-a-ton.

Dear Summit Entertainment, in Breaking Dawn, I'm begging you as a Twihard fan, PLEASE reduce the snogging, and more on the action.

Love,
Ashlee.


after coming out from the cinema, disappointed, like very disappointed.
headed to get my copy of Galaxies, they're featuring Vampire Diaries as their cover.

hmm, I'm sullen?
I don't know, do I seem like that?
weird, okay anyway, had a great laugh in church.
gone crazy, don't know why.
I had a really disturbing dream, plus the disappointment of Eclipse that I've been looking forward for like 1 month or 2?
having those teenage mood swing, down-ish.
or like they call "emo".
whatever.

found quite a number of pointers for my debate, only for the first topic, gahs.
I'm the first speaker, so basically I need a definition.
I found the super short definition on google.
my sister was like, :" So you're gonna be like ' According to www.google.com, informative generation means blah blah blah?'"
thanks to Petra Tang for the help (:

feeling kind of sick, try sitting in the cinema for two hours gobling down McD burger, two packets of fries and a bucket of popcorn.

eeks, I'm hating the mood swing thingy.
disturbing, if I could cry it better, I would, just that I can't.
oh wells, hmphz.
frapz, there's a freaking bird flying around my house, just don't shiz aite?

alright, i'm done.
&&bye!

boo.

feels like summer, I meant the picture,dope.
You're the harmony to every song I sing, and I wouldn't change a thing.
Joe Jonas featuring Demi Lovato.
nice song, it's for Camp Rock 2: The Final Jam

I love my momma (:
it hurts to see her hands wounded by the infection
T_T whatever she does, it hurts.
take care, momma.

I've been accused of smacking my classmates butt, =.=
which I DID NOT!!!!!!!!!!!
it was his back!! rawr, that's what he gets for slapping me.
ugh, HIS BACK, not BACKSIDEASS.

yesterday I was listening to "Breakaway" by Kelly Clarkson.
;) memories, "I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly, I'll do what it takes, till I touch the sky, make a wish, take a chance, make a change, and breakaway"
meaningful lyrics, beautiful song, what happen to those type of songs?
8 out of 10 songs now are meaningless

Usher's "OMG" - it's all, OH MYYY GAWWDDDD, OH MY GAWD~ OH MYYY~ STFU.

PubertyBoy's "One Time" - Imma tell you one time, one time, one time, one time.Imma smack you one time, two times, three times, four times~

30H!3 featurting Ke$ha "My First Kiss" - ma first kiss when a little like this *MUAKS* wth =.=

stop talking that blah blah blah, hmmz.

I've been looking for chokers the whole afternoon, my google searches are "choker blogshop malaysia" or "victorian chokers malaysia" or "chokers"
and I found..
www.i-socksonline.com!
not exactly, but the models were wearing chokers :D

RAAAHH, debate, in two weeks.
and I have completely NO idea how this thing goes.
one word, shizzz.
okay maybe it's not that bad, or it might be fun.


someone gives me an eerie feeling when I'm near them, weird.

scratch that, my arm hurts since this morning, boo.
gravity loves me, I hate gravity.
gives me blueblack kisses.

time to sleep now, rock a bye,baby.

&&TEEHEE

❤

my blog titles never match my post, blahs.
today was Open Day, is that what it's called?
I don't know, Parents' day?
anyway, I got home around 3:30.
eeks, my classmate screwing ass banged my head.
his big, rebouncing, jelly ass!
EEKS, my poor head.
nothing much today, homework time.
&&itscoolduckyou

blehs.

❤ oh yeah, picture says it all.
had a couple of draft blog posts, didn't really bother to write anything.
there wasn't much going on anyway.

I went to Penang yesterday (:
wanted to get the Vampire Diaries books.

Queensbay
Borders : " oh sorry, we only have this one left." *shows me crumpled "The Awakening" book

okay fine, next stop, Popular
Popular : " Huh? Vampire Diaries?" *whispers to colleague "wei, English book ah?"*
he went to the "NON-FICTION" section to find, MY GAWDNESS.

seriously.. is it that much to ask for?
a freaking book? darn it.

skipz that, "Tao restaurant" ❤


I am so not having abalones or scallops anymore, for the time being.
I'm practically SICK of it.
ala carte buffet, all you can eat.
imagine that, heaven.
me & my sisters were like high, without alcohol.
one of the waiter thought tobacco sauce was, TOMATO sauce.
after observing our insanity, they were literally trying their best to avoid to serve our table.
some of them went to the other side of the restaurant, BWAHAHA.


oops, before "Tao", we were at "Austin Chase" chilling and playing board games.
yes, board games.
Uno cards, hilarious.
then JENGA, and fyi, it's like..


we played checkers,too.
I lost, mom & sis sacrificed my babies and let my second sis "eat" them.
boo, -.-

oh, how I wish I had a DSLR.
there were literally a sky full of stars, on the way home.
very beautiful indeed, romantic as well *grins*


&&ttyl❤ dinner time at nine.

stfu.

ash-ful

woke up feeling fatigue, gosh.
I couldn't feel myself until I was fully conscious.
plugged in my earphones, played " Help, I'm Alive" and got out of bed.
when I looked into the mirror, I saw the living dead.
I looked terrible, thank God I was back to normal after I showered.
it was really BORING in school, especially Maths.
I felt half awake and half in neverland.
suddenly, *BELL RINGS* hallelujuah thank you Jesus!
carried my oh so heavy bag, fasten my pace and rushed to the car.
I can't believe I fell asleep in the car, showed how tired I was.
and how RAWWRRRRRRRRing hungry I was.
I ate, hmm what did I have again?
hmm, OH, fish and soup.
after that, I had red bean sago soup, buttersugar bread and ice cream!
oh heavens, I so need to work out after this.

tuition time, dang it.
so I came in late, I sat wayy at the back, holy moly, the reeking,disgusting,disturbing smell.
no offence dude, I swore I could feel my barf coming up.
so when the teacher went out, I ran waayyy to the front and sat with a bunch of guys.
what a relieve, anything's better than that.
although there was some awkward moments when I switch places.
there was the "WOOOOOOOO~~" part, and the "omg, you're making him jealous" blah blah blah.
note, him refers to someone who likes me, eeks =.="

it was much much more fun sitting there, cheeky guys.
and NO, I am not flirting. that's like wrong, VERY wrong.

Rob is such a dork, in a funny way.
Edward looked like some trans in his first Twilight movie.
please don't kill me Edward fans.
to make it up to you, he looks great in Eclipse.
though he looked like an "AH GUA" when he did modelling.

momma seems fine with me watching Eclipse.
YAY, so I'm guessing she'll get over the smuggling Vampire Diaries when I get in from Penang.

hmm, long story short, pfft like I haven't said enough, don't really have a conclusion for this.

typeyoulaterlove.
&&huh?

huba huba ❤

oh my gosh, either there's something wrong with me or, yeah something's wrong with me.
major vampire obsession much!

holy crow, this is just crazy.
tsk tsk, at least I'm not the only one.
Mister Kevin, teehee, Alice Rimas Lee.
blahs, skipz.

had alot, aayy loooorrrtt of stocks in my house since yesterday.
mom and I managed to finish them today, except we ended up feeling like prawns.
yucks, prawns.

oh shizz, I don't wanna sing in assembly tomorrow, darn it.
this morning, when I woke up, I wrote :

"5 July, Monday.
Dear Diary,
good morning. Continuing what I said last night, I..

do you actually think I'd write my diary out in public?
bsh, ain't no fool, fool.
eepkz! I seriously don't know what to blog now.
it's like my head is filled with vampires
NOOO, anything but and that!

looking for a new theme for my phone, none of my favourites.
boohoo.

blehz enough for now.
&&oui?

peek a moo (:

Ian ❤



Paul ❤

hunks alert, goodness, sexy vampires.
BAHAs, they're MINE! pfft, me and my daydreaming.
season two of Vampire Diaries is gonna be out in Aug/Sept.
just one or two more months to go.
whee-hee!

gheez, homework to do
blob you later!
&&toodle-lu-dah-lu~

clueless.

today was really weird, I feel unsure of everything and of course, upset.
why? I wanna know,too.
typical mood swings perhaps.
it's July already, time flies, one moment I just got into high school, next I'll be graduating.
pfft pfft, screw that, anyway we took photos in school today.
for the school magazine, duh.

oh yeah, a few more songs I'd recommend.
All I Wanted by Paramore
Gravity by Sara Barellies
Cut by Plumb
Lovesick Mistake by Erin McCarley

Vampire Diaries, the books I mean, is waaaay different than the TV series.
I mean, Elena was suppose to be blonde?
Matt and Vicki weren't related?
Jeremy never existed?
Stefan was avoiding Elena?
Who's Meredith?

questions and more questions.
darn, again I say, different.

The Similarities of Twilight and Vampire Diaries

The Heroine

Elena Gilbert, The Vampire Diaries: Elena is beautiful, tan, and popular. Every boy wants her, every girl wants to be her. blahs

Bella Swan, Twilight: Although Bella doesn't recognize that she is beautiful, she is, but in a pale, brunette, tragic sort of way. Every boy wants her.

The Hero

Stefan Salvatore, The Vampire Diaries: very European and mysterious, with dark, curly hair, pale skin, and a certain something about him that makes every single girl at school want him. He'll have none of them, though, even feigning disinterest in Elena, who he feels an instant connection to. Feeds only on wild animals.
Edward Cullen, Twilight: very old-fashioned and mysterious, with copper-colored, curly hair, pale skin, and a certain something about him that makes every single girl at school want him. He'll have none of them, though, even feigning disgust at Bella, who he feels an instant connection to. Feeds only on wild animal, too.

hmm, though Vampire Diaries were out in 1991 I think.
and Twilight in 2002 maybe? just guessing.
switching my music frequency to... dark yet not gothic type.
relaxing, hmm, I still don't get what's bothering me.

oh! Metric, a band sang both for Vampire Diaries and Eclipse!
Help I'm Alive was from VD, and Eclipse (All Yours) from Eclipse.
awesome much, cool band.
Muse is nice, too.

alright alright, you all must be bored to death by my oh so long blog entry.
that's it, for now

&&farewell my love!

Vampire Diaries ❤

I couldn't help myself, I finished season 1.
season 2 is gonna be out in Aug/Sept.
boo, in the meantime, I'm looking for their soundtracks.
switch my music frequency to something else than the usuals I hear on the radio :D

a few I'd recommend.
We'll Be A Dream by We The Kings featuring Demi Lovato
Only One by Alex Band
Run by Leona Lewis
Wait It Out by Imogen Heaps
Help I'm Alive by Metric
When A Heart Breaks by Dave Barnes
Down by Jason Walker
these were the few I found nice so far.
there's like tons of songs to listen to, interesting.
some of them, dark yet relaxing.
at least it neutralizes my mood.

today, I finally learnt how to play Rain Down on the piano.
well sort of, I got the chords and the whatever-you-call-it-when-you-play-with-your-right-hand.
so yeah, it sounds alright, so I think I'm good for now.
pianos are nice, if you know how to play, that is.
if you're someone like me, try to stay away from it.
kidds, I'm not THAT bad, I think.

it sucks to open your wallet and see one dollar left in it.
so empty :(
urghh, I miss my fifties.
screw that.

just finished my homework and I'm off to bed!
my hands are freaking tired, I'm tired.
rawr, vampiressss.
twilight's on TV now, gosh.
Stefan is waaay hotter than Edward.

teehee.
&&goodbyenight.

beep.

chaotic situation.
A is annoying, B likes me.
I told B that A's annoying.
B wanna whack A.
A wanna whack B
now A wanna GET WHACKED by B.

conclusion : A is insane, B is a try-hard dude.

whatever.
so I haven't blog last night due to fatigue.
nothing much had happened yesterday, same ol same ol.
writing my diary has become a hobby to me.
at least, there's somewhere I can express myself.
blogs are too public, obviously.
anyways, I'm at episode 20 on The Vampire Diaries.
although I might watch on the tv again tonight.
provided if I make it back before 9.30pm from Ipoh tonight.
trying to learn the piano version of "Mighty To Save"
I got the intro part right, now the main part.
Hillsong Aussie's coming to Ipoh on the 11 August!
woohoo, I am so going.

just came back from Ipoh, just in time for the show.
hopefully dad lets me watch.
&&goodbye!

HAHA.

brief update.
church was pretty fun today, just not when everyone had nothing to do.
after church I didn't follow my parents for shopping.
instead I went to Ash's house!
it was pretty fun, we talked a lot, funny.
she has the cutest dogs, ever!
although they kept licking and biting my legs.
we got the intro for Mighty To Save!
I wished I could stay longer, too bad my parents came by 5.
I was suppose to buy the first book of Vampire Diaries and smuggle back home, but I didn't go to Jusco.
blahs, next week then.

&&bu-uh-ai

what?

I've learnt a very important lesson today, to treasure whatever I have and be thankful for it.
this afternoon, me and mom went to visit a poor lady, her husband left her without a cent with an unborn child who is due next month and three other sick children.
she earns less than RM200 per month, her rental is already RM150, what's left is all she has.
not to mention she has to pay for the water, electricity bills.
it was just heartaching to see them like that.
by doing the wires, well that's her job.
for every 1000, she only earns RM9 for it.
but for a pregnant lady, how much can she do? as much as she pushes herself to.
we brought a box of instant mee, two tins of biscuits, some clothes and milo for them.
plus some tid-bits for her children.
when I handed the kids those tid-bits, to see them so happy to receive a simple packet of tid-bits, it was so pityful, I wanted to cry.
how hard it is for them, to live like this.
the least I could help is to help them feel like how a child should feel again.
I meant, what's childhood when you don't get tasty snacks?
the house was small and empty.
their clothes on the rack, the amount of clothes they had were about less than a quarter of the amount of clothes in my closet.
it made me realized how blessed I was, to have a comfortable home, with sufficient food, the warmness of a family.
it broke my heart to see the children, not having their father around and having to see their mother suffer while they sat there, helpless.
their mother is a tough woman, despite everything, she stayed strong.
I was looking through their home, they didn't have any eggs,oil or rice.
they ate a mixed batter of flour, sugar and water, fried and ate with dal.

I was merely shocked, my heart shattered.
to think of the things they're going through, is unbearable.
if I knew them, I wish I could give them the warmest hug, to tell them that everything's gonna be okay and that God will supply all their needs.

I know God will help them, I believe that.

&&seeyouagain

pee-am-ass.

no wonder I've been having mood swings and anger rage these couple of days.
this explains why I can cry every day.
eeks, at least I got to swim yesterday :D
woke up this morning with a stiff neck and foot.
ouch, it hurt.
I tried applying some YokoYoko on it, but it ended up getting itchy and therefore my neck is red.
oh wells, at least it doesn't hurt that much anymore.
swimming was fun yesterday, besides the fact I kept getting water into my nose.
as most of you saw my Facebook post, I lost my bracelet :(
my mom and I searched the whole house and we couldn't find it.
how sad, but the good news is, she just found it in my track pants.
I didn't know I left it there, oh well, but YAY for that.
yesterday, my dad came to me and asked me to sit on his lap.
he told me, he'd always been proud of me, just that sometimes my attitude can be sort of bad, but he still loves me and he'll always be proud of me.
it was definitely a daddy's girl momento for me.
cause lately my dad had some issues, and well, I rather keep it private.
anywhoo, I finally got all my results back, but I had no idea how my PJK marks could be 49, and my Segak marks was only 5.
seriously, I'm not that bad at sports, come on, you should give me more credits for that.
bahas, nevermind, doesn't matter anyway, just a rant.
so I haven't been blogging for two days, not that long but still.
at least now I can write in peace.
I don't need to worry about school anymore, or anything else.
oh right, thanks Kevin for the videos you did for me.
I appreciate it alot, and thanks for offering to buy me another bracelet when I couldn't find mine.
you're truly a great friend to me.
one more thing, I seriously have a hard time remembering how to spell appreciate.
it's like every time I wanna type that word, I have to google it.
I spelt appreciate as appriciate.
eeks, sucky english.

sometimes I wonder, who am I?
and no, I'm not a psycho neither am I having amnesia.
there's so much to think, it's pretty fun at times, especially when I'm bored.
wonders and wonders, I tend to loosen up a little to avoid headaches.
pshh, my thoughts.

I don't know why, but I sort of feel like my blog is so.. formal? no that's not the word for it.
proper?
no, not that either.
honestly, I don't sound like a 14 year old.
not that I haven't got that a million times already.
Diana said I'm matured and too kind-hearted.
am I?
not the matured part but the too kind-hearted part.
maybe I am, at times. hmm.

as if the post isn't long enough, I wanna add, too.
I love Vampire Diaries, definitely a better series than Twilight Saga.
although I haven't read the book but the TV series seems interesting enough.
at least VD is based more on different people's lives than just one.
whereas TS is talking about one person's point of view.
my opinion.

that's enough for now.
&&au revoir~

pale.

my cakes!



this was what I had for Sunday in Jusco, yum


and this was what I cooked the same night.


my friends have been telling me I look pale, white.
I have dark dark circles under my eyes.
I'm like a.. VAMPIRE -.-"
just that I hate the taste of blood and my heart's still beating.
me & my vampire nonsense.
can't help myself sometimes.
paranormal romance is way much interesting than fairytale happy endings.
I no longer wish for my knight in shining armor, I want my sparkling vampire in a shining Volvo.
bahas, a girl can dream right?

&&bon voyage

bieberBLAST!

JustinBieber. yiiiaakk.
not really, I like "Never Say Never"
:D so Bieber fans, I am NOT a hater

eeps, I bit my lips again, great, it's bleeding.
blood. yucks.
taste disgusting, I think I'm gonna have nausea.
Jaden Smith is so cute, fittie cutie.
better get going, tuition time.

&&burbye.

waka waka.

the title said it, I sort of like that song ❤
it's time for Africa~ ❤

skip that, finally I've gotten all of my test papers, except PJK, but that's like nothing.
I'm kind of satisfied with my results, some were better, some were worse.
mom didn't seem to be satisfied, oh well.
still not good enough, blahs.

hmm hmm, at least I can have some peaceful sleep tonight.
next week, I am so getting "Beautiful Creatures"
the book seems pretty nice.

I'll talk to you later. ❤
&&buhbhye

❤

my baby is here!!! ❤❤❤❤❤❤
this just made my entire day bright again. :D

that's it.

I have HAD IT, I'm living in a world with no privacy, AT ALL.
I'm guessing at this time, you'd be reading, too, huh?
you know what? I WANT my PRIVACY, this is not the way show me you care, okay?
ASK ME, not invade me!

DANG IT.
UGH.

want face girl.

ignore the face below, focus the one on top :D
Mr. Kevin Rimas Lee playing gitar udara!
nyahahaha, blur case blur case.

uh oh, tomorrow perhimpunan, I wonder were they serious about being strict and stuff.
eeks, there's no pins at home.
dum dum daa dum, death sentence.

I couldn't sleep last night until 4am, and I woke up at 6am.
gosh it was the hardest during English period.
I kept yawning and yawning, how embarrassing.
my eyes were soaked, puffy, I couldn't even feel my legs.
sort of managed to be fully awake after recess.
after all, it was pretty boring since Celine didn't come to school.

whee whee, going Penang in approximately 2 weeks!
yummy food, SHOPPING, relatives ❤

"you know how you drown a blonde, Rosalie? I asked without stopping or turning to look at her"

first day.

for starters, I DID NOT GET C FOR CHINESE!!!!!!! WOOOHOOOOOO. :D
and also, I GOT A FOR BM!
but KH... nevermind, 75 is better than nothing.
Celine didn't come to school today, bahs lazy pig.
ever since school started, mom always nag at me whenever I'm at the laptop.
so annoying, dang it.
gotta run.

&& bye!

Fday ❤

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!!!

I woke up with a red red eye, ended not practising the father's day performance AT ALL.
impromptu was WHOA, ash had a sore throat, eeks poor thing.
so we sort of did it, I guess, BWAHAHAHA.
okay anywhoo, after that we had JAMMING SESSION!
fun, kind of, Kaitlyn didn't come, awww.
after church, we went for MAKAN~
Koh Samui, the food wasn't spicy at all, YAY for that, mom called me a chinadoll cause I can't really take spicy food.
I'm sort of lazy to type everything out, maybe next time.

belated Fday post. oops.

this is what happens when school's reopening and you DON'T want to do your homeworks.

my eyes has been itching since last night, now still.
I wonder what's wrong, dang it.
tomorrow's father's day, woohoo?
I'm trying as hard to keep my mind off exam results.

&&tiktok

ash-hole

T-minus 2 days, school reopens.
YAY! crap, my results.
for so many nights, I've been having weird dreams.
then yesterday, I had a nightmare.
not really a nightmare, just half of it.
I dreamt that everything about me was a disgrace to my father.
he was like any jerk, mocking me, looking down on me, scolding me, comparing me.
it hurt so much in my dream.
he treated me like bullshit, literally.
gosh, after that, I was back at my primary school with a twist of nonsense.
he was there, I don't know why.
we were, more or less, friends, I think.
but he seemed to rush away from me all the time.
oh well, I couldn't be bothered, I rather have it that way than now.
when I arrived at my own class, which was four floors up, I saw fireworks, how weird.
I don't even know what we were celebrating.
then the worst part was, my "admirer", eeeww, typing it is disgusting enough, kept sticking to me.
like some leech, unpleasant to think of.

so anyway, this morning I woke up around 12 noon, it was, yet another ordinary day.
after I got ready, I went to the "All You Can Eat Durian" festival, eeks I'm never eating durians EVER again.
it was REALLY hot, I swear I'm gonna barf if I smell durians again.

I have to admit I'm a little worked up about guitar, I mean the songs that I'm gonna play.
but thank GOD for KEVIN, he'll teach me the sturmmings, thanks bro (:

that's all, for now.

&&take5

ordered my bracelet! :D
I'm so happy!
they are extremely adorable.
I made a Twilight inspired charm bracelet.
❤

making this as short as possible.
cougartown is hilarious.

&&byeee

to-morrow

apparently I won't be going out tomorrow.
sad case, I'll be stuck at home, working

this quota just made me crack up, "Hi, I'm a plant, nom nom nom photosynthesis." EPIC.
got back from "swimming" with Miao, damn funny.
we couldn't go to the adults' pool because we weren't exactly in swimming costumes.
so we went to the kiddies's pool!
gosh, I've never realized that I was that white in the sun.
after getting out of the water, I'm like a Cullen, LMFAO.
the water reflects the sunlight, I glitter!
whoops, OCD again.
I never notice how hot Edward was, shirtless.


nyahahaha, I'm all about the bods.
as Feli would say, nom nom nom.

http://ryldesigns.feezee.com/ has the cutest charm bracelets!
two more weeks to Eclipse!
I'll so love Justin Bieber if his voice cracks.
anything's still better than his SQUUEEEKKKYY mickey voice :D

&&bee and pie ❤

say it, say it LOUD.

I've said it once, and I'll say it twice, "I have moved on."
normally I suck hardcore at goodbyes, but this time I took it okay.
thanks to my loving friends and family.
I hold nothing against you, and I, too hope you'll hold nothing against me.

and cut, bullshit time officially over.
it's really nice to be able to reconnect with old friends again.
I never realized how much I've missed them.
everyone seems to be in tip top shape, that's good, I suppose.

KEVJUMBAAAA ❤
gosh, he is just the funniest guy on Youtube, ever.
pretty cute, too (;
he's not chubby, but neither is he skinny, so he's like in the middle, awesome-ness

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gaaCq7ELGZk
this is hilarious, seriously.
I died laughing at this, next thing I knew, I looked like a lobster after laughing.

and birthday wishes to Pamela and Nicholas :D
since I won't be in tomorrow, have a happy birthday and may all your dreams come true.
take care you two (:

asianamericanafricanenglishITALIANfrenchindianbrazilianalaskan && others. ❤

we are one! say NO to racism!

&&BAIBAI ❤

P.S. I love you nevermind

RAWR.

I want, I want, I want!!!!!
*whines*
although I'm not that type of make-up person, but this is just ❤


&&loves.

eye see liao.

as if the past few days weren't enough, my dreams are getting more and more useless and IDIOTIC.

let's see, last night I dreamt of me holding a DSLR taking a close shot of Maegan at someone's funeral.
that is just bull-sheet.
after that, I magically reappeared in the shopping mall where I've dreamt before.
I was at the "SUGAR" department, there were "Cat's Milk" sugar, "Milk" sugar, "DARK CHOCOLATE" sugar.
this is absurd!! what the heck is with my dream.

Breathe, okay I'm done.

"SHIT happens"

&&bon voyage.

glee-ass

besides the fact that I bang my head against the wall while I was walking, it's pretty much an ordinary night.

fun weird fact : I tend to forget to breathe. I know, I wonder, too.

father's day's around the block, bought some stuff for dad.
*hopes* he likes it.

hubba hubba, ❤
like no other, TAYLOR LAUTNER!
psshh, I'm a girl, can't blame me for that.

gahs, school reopens in T-minus 5 days.
SOBS! I so don't want to face my results, I don't even wanna know.
push that away, GOSH! Ashley Greene looks so different with long hair!
dang, guitar made my fingertips's skin peel yet again.
all of a sudden, I feel so... different.
it sucks to have mood hoo haa during the holidays.
it's like half of the time I'll feel confused, half a second I feel hyperactive.
I wish, really I wish, I was good at writing, elaborating and expressing how I feel.
sadly my knowledge isn't enough yet.
that's all for now.

&&shutup.

seconds,minutes to forever

these books are usually meant for girls rather than boys, my theory.



I just finished watching Twilight, it's not my first time but still.
how hilarious to see them act, apparently they aren't THAT good but it's still a good movie.
I couldn't help smiling like an idiot whenever Robert smiles or when he has those mysterious yet dazzling eyes locked unto Bella's.
I never realized Stephenie herself was also in the movie, not any important roles but still she was in it.
up next, NEW MOON.




New Moon, hmm.
first of all, HOT bods alert.
I mean which normal girl CAN resist them?
come on, fitties with abs, wolverine is so not hot anymore.
we're talking about WEREWOLVES baby!
I wouldn't say Edward wasn't hot, just that, toned pale bods can't be compared to tanned toned bods.
note, face BODS are hot, don't get me wrong.
Edward's still as dreamy.
BLEH.




well not much comment about this yet, but the book's awesome.
poor Bree Tanner, dead at the end of the story.
Seth Clearwater's pretty cute, sort of, I guess.
Leah Clearwater, not so much, pretty, I think.
I don't like how they replaced Victoria, the old one seems better.
like I said, seems.
I'm still excite about the movie.


meeehh.

again, I had a weird dream last night.
again, gosh how many times am I ever gonna repeat this word.
so we were at Cameron Highlands, the place where I went for my church camp.
so basically it looks like this.



Photo from Chan Ken Ee

so anyways, we were there.
we included myself, my old church friends, my class mates, my school mates, Rachel from FRIENDS, I had no idea why she was in it, but she was, my current church friends and people whom I've seen on tv but I don't remember their names.
so we were having this party, celebrating something, I don't know what.
we had drinks, which includes orange juice, mini bottles of beer, plain mineral water, and mini wine.
we were having quite a party, then everyone started drinking, BOTTOMS UP!
then all of a sudden, we were at someone's house.
playing those kiddies games, like.. honestly I don't know the name.
it's like you throw up a small ball, and pick up the thingys on the floor -__-"
moving on, my friend whom I've been avoiding, i'm not being mean, he's just annoying, suddenly appeared behind me.
that freaked the human outta me, he was going to school.
alright, after he left, we were all back to the camp site.
partying, again, then *WHAMMM* the doors shut loudly.
a thunderstorm-earthquacking-flood happened, the place was shaking, everyone started to panic.
meanwhile, I saw some of my friends taking ice from the fridge.
apparently they didn't realize the disaster, the ice were labeled as " LOL "
some of them were planning to dig underground to hide.
like how they were going to dig a big hole, of course they never thought of the flood coming.
then Rachel, from FRIENDS had an idea.
she took a car tyre and magically built it onto the swing, and sat on it when the flood was rushing over.
and everyone did the same, surprisingly we survived, swinging in water when the flood came.
the swings were tall enough to keep our bodies above water.
when the flood was over, we saw the polices coming to the rescue.
like anyone would, we were freezing, so me and two of my friends went inside the car.
the police started driving, when I turned my head to look at the others.
they were in school uniforms, ready to go to school.
as if I wasn't blur enough, my body automatically woke up.
this was weirder than yesterday's dream!
goodness, what's up with me these days.
boo, it's gonna rain again.

&&toodles!

ouch.

please pay good attention, CUT YOUR TOE NAILS.
yes you heard it, CUT YOUR TOE NAILS
or face this!!




yucks, I was playing with my mini gym ball.
crossed my legs and youch!
keep bleeding, I keep bleeding blood.
"momma, i've got a boo-boo."


scratch that, not literally this time.
I'm so hungry! I had those triangular sticky rice with meat & stuff.
mmmm.. but pretty darn small.
*groans* ME WANT FOOOOOOOOOOD
tonight I'm gonna start on my tinsy winsy diary. ❤

*brrruuuuhhhh* it's raining today, the blinds are shut, it's always the same
naww, just kidding.
but really, it's raining.
i'm shivering, gosh it's cold for once.
nice, besides the fact it's too cold for me.
my mom just said the cutest thing!
she said :"How do you frown? I've never try frowning on purpose."
AWWness ❤

&&i'm out~

absurd

that word kept ringing in my head, this is just absurd.
finally I remembered my dream I had last night.
I was at some mall with.. Miao , Xue Ying and Ashley. LOL
so we were at this shop, looked something like Vincci accessories & DIVA combined together. quite a big shop, all white, full with accessories
okay, so XY & Miao were trying on head bands, so was I.
the weird thing was every time I try putting on the head band, it never fits.
it's like when it reaches my head, it becomes smaller or something. or maybe my head grown big.
well that sucked, then somehow, I appeared in front of "Maple Magic MPH"
LMAO I know, it was like a forest-themed MPH with Harry Potter waving his wand.
inside the book store, instead of coffee tables and sofas, there were beds.
big, white beds with comfy pillows, *recalling Breaking Dawn moments* LOL
for those who don't know, nevermind.
so anywhoo, I was somehow reading on the bed, more specifically, I was reading Pride and Prejudice.
I was reading that book before I slept last night.
besides reading, I was having a flu in my dream. darn it, I woke up with it, too
suddenly, I was back at the accessory shop with my friends.
only this time, I was in PJs.
somehow one side of a Nike shoe caught my eye at the corner.
I went over and look, eeeww, disgusting.
as I turned around, my friends were, yes gone.
I could have sworn I saw a MPH Cullen, I was at The Curve at that moment.
I saw my parents, and my friends who were clearly running away like I'm some monster.
A brief moment after that, I woke up from my dream and, SNEEZED.

&& they lived happily ever after. right.

bree tanner.

nice story, sad ending though.
bree tanner was an average fifteen/sixteen year old girl.
ran away from her abusive father, got bitten by a vampire, Riley.
met a friend named Diego, who in the end died as well.
she had no intention of joining the bad side, she didn't know the rules and she had no choice.
if only she was given a second chance. how sad.




this is just plain freaky, Edward Cullen's grave.
no,no, he's not dead, he's just immortal (:
ever since I started to get addicted to Twilight Saga, I've been having real weird dreams lately.
I wouldn't call them nightmares, they weren't exactly sweet dreams either.

hmm, an evil vampire captured everyone I knew, inculding myself.
had the power to cut off all connection, as in phone lines and stuff.
I tried to call Edward, LOL yes Edward Cullen, I don't know why.
but my phone buzzed out, like I said, EVIL vampire LOL
I tried calling Rosalie, Carlisle, Esme and Alice, again, FAILED.
somehow Edward came, sort of rescued me, it was pretty funny though.
apparently he didn't lift me up and ran like lightning speed.
we ran and ran, he was fast, while I was.. running like a human, I was the last to leave the house.
they were driving their shiny Volvo, but they were all in black and white CLOWNmake-up and hair!
after that, I couldn't remember much, and I woke up.
blah it was really freaky though when I was still stuck in the house.
everyone was like zombies, weak, didn't even had the strength to panic.

anyways, I absolutely thrilled about Eclipse!
I can't help myself, again and again, DAZZLED.

that's all for now, "..Be safe.." - Edward Cullen ❤

&& over and out.

twilight saga ❤

twilight ❤ it's not an obsession. it's my alternative reality.

i wanna live in Forks ❤
i wanna be the opposite of ordinary ❤

❤ twihard fan

"..Look after my heart, I've left it with you.." ❤

considered me DAZZLED ❤

i don't care about my knight in shining armor, i want my vampire in a shiny volvo ❤

yeah, so I'm in love with a fictional character, so? Only twilighters understands ❤

i'm an edward kinda girl ❤

screw this, i'm moving to Forks.
goodness, apparently or rather obviously I'm having OCD (Obsessive Cullen Disorder)
it's not like a bad thing, it's the opposite of it.
❤ i'm eagerly waiting for Eclipse to come out!
why oh why must the release date be later than other countries?!
it's not fair! 7th July ❤
i'll be waiting, Edward Cullen ❤ enuff said.

"..Isabella Swan, I promise to love you every moment of forever.." - Edward Cullen
that has to be the sweetest thing, ever!
if people like Edward Cullen existed, normal boys would live as bachelors for the rest of their lifes.

song of the day - ☊ 27 May - Yiruma

smile (:

woke up at 10:45am this morning, supposed to meet my friends at 11am. ZOMG
as I rush and rush, I managed to get ready and get there by 11:15am (:
so we went to the park at first, like any bunch of hooligans, we went on the swings and see-saws.
as loud as we were, everyone seemed to stare at us, funny situation.



scandalous








bahas. so after that we went for "cendol"~
dang it, stupid stall kept us waiting and waiting for who knows how long.
we got fed up, we were about to leave, THEN the cendols came.
it wasn't as appetizing as I thought, but it was quite a hot day, might as well eat it.
after having our not so nice cendol, we were off to...THE STORE!!!! =__=
but it was for the air-con, nothing else but that.
we walked around like idiots, enjoying the cold air inside.
then we decided to go to KFC, at first we wanted to just sit inside there and relax.
of course it'd be rude, so they ate. I just drank.

scandalous..


kidding, just don't murder me.

this boy seriously has manner issues


so after all that, we went to The Gate for lunch? tea-time? snack? oh whatever.
more and more people came, well not that I know them so well, but yeah they were friends of friends.
didn't take any pictures after KFC, wasn't much to take.
everyone was in a rather, quieter & calm mood.
around 3pm, I left the group and went home.
so volia, here I am.
i'm hoping it won't rain anymore, it'd be nice to hang out with them again tonight.
i really need some distractions right now.


&&blob you later.