breathe.

"it's getting worse, very much worse.
what's going on?"


draft on the 20th July 2010.

whoa, my EMOments.
freaky, teenage mood swings are NOT fun, at all.
so we won second place in debate yesterday, we did pretty well, my opinion.
tho I have to admit, it was kind of exciting.
with my heart going "..thum thum thum thum.." like it's going 300km/h.

this is what seriousness should look like.


convincing? I KNOW.

nothing much happened during this week, just debate practice.
blogyoulater.

love.

Alexandre Desplat, ❤
his melodies are incredible, New Moon The Score.
an album filled with his lullabies in New Moon.
the wonders of a piano and a talented person.

I jerked out a couple of tears before I slept last night.
just not feeling me these few days.
I have no reasons to feel sad or frustrated, against all odd, I am.
having to fake a smile in school, laugh like everything's okay, pretty much tiring.
my senses tell me I'll be fine, and I will. eventually.
perhaps, again my teenage hormones.
so please take note, do not blow my bubble.

piano melodies are like medicine to my soul now.
He's holding me in His arms and I'll be okay.
life doesn't seem realistic, now what I just said was plain crap.
it just feels that way, to my of course.

sighs.
enough now, off to get my debate stuffs.
&&ughbye.

hmm.

vampires, Vampire Diaries, Twilight,
oh, Twilight.
Eclipse was a major fail.
I mean, seriously, it's like MEGA snog-a-ton.

Dear Summit Entertainment, in Breaking Dawn, I'm begging you as a Twihard fan, PLEASE reduce the snogging, and more on the action.

Love,
Ashlee.


after coming out from the cinema, disappointed, like very disappointed.
headed to get my copy of Galaxies, they're featuring Vampire Diaries as their cover.

hmm, I'm sullen?
I don't know, do I seem like that?
weird, okay anyway, had a great laugh in church.
gone crazy, don't know why.
I had a really disturbing dream, plus the disappointment of Eclipse that I've been looking forward for like 1 month or 2?
having those teenage mood swing, down-ish.
or like they call "emo".
whatever.

found quite a number of pointers for my debate, only for the first topic, gahs.
I'm the first speaker, so basically I need a definition.
I found the super short definition on google.
my sister was like, :" So you're gonna be like ' According to www.google.com, informative generation means blah blah blah?'"
thanks to Petra Tang for the help (:

feeling kind of sick, try sitting in the cinema for two hours gobling down McD burger, two packets of fries and a bucket of popcorn.

eeks, I'm hating the mood swing thingy.
disturbing, if I could cry it better, I would, just that I can't.
oh wells, hmphz.
frapz, there's a freaking bird flying around my house, just don't shiz aite?

alright, i'm done.
&&bye!

boo.

feels like summer, I meant the picture,dope.
You're the harmony to every song I sing, and I wouldn't change a thing.
Joe Jonas featuring Demi Lovato.
nice song, it's for Camp Rock 2: The Final Jam

I love my momma (:
it hurts to see her hands wounded by the infection
T_T whatever she does, it hurts.
take care, momma.

I've been accused of smacking my classmates butt, =.=
which I DID NOT!!!!!!!!!!!
it was his back!! rawr, that's what he gets for slapping me.
ugh, HIS BACK, not BACKSIDEASS.

yesterday I was listening to "Breakaway" by Kelly Clarkson.
;) memories, "I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly, I'll do what it takes, till I touch the sky, make a wish, take a chance, make a change, and breakaway"
meaningful lyrics, beautiful song, what happen to those type of songs?
8 out of 10 songs now are meaningless

Usher's "OMG" - it's all, OH MYYY GAWWDDDD, OH MY GAWD~ OH MYYY~ STFU.

PubertyBoy's "One Time" - Imma tell you one time, one time, one time, one time.Imma smack you one time, two times, three times, four times~

30H!3 featurting Ke$ha "My First Kiss" - ma first kiss when a little like this *MUAKS* wth =.=

stop talking that blah blah blah, hmmz.

I've been looking for chokers the whole afternoon, my google searches are "choker blogshop malaysia" or "victorian chokers malaysia" or "chokers"
and I found..
www.i-socksonline.com!
not exactly, but the models were wearing chokers :D

RAAAHH, debate, in two weeks.
and I have completely NO idea how this thing goes.
one word, shizzz.
okay maybe it's not that bad, or it might be fun.


someone gives me an eerie feeling when I'm near them, weird.

scratch that, my arm hurts since this morning, boo.
gravity loves me, I hate gravity.
gives me blueblack kisses.

time to sleep now, rock a bye,baby.

&&TEEHEE

❤

my blog titles never match my post, blahs.
today was Open Day, is that what it's called?
I don't know, Parents' day?
anyway, I got home around 3:30.
eeks, my classmate screwing ass banged my head.
his big, rebouncing, jelly ass!
EEKS, my poor head.
nothing much today, homework time.
&&itscoolduckyou

blehs.

❤ oh yeah, picture says it all.
had a couple of draft blog posts, didn't really bother to write anything.
there wasn't much going on anyway.

I went to Penang yesterday (:
wanted to get the Vampire Diaries books.

Queensbay
Borders : " oh sorry, we only have this one left." *shows me crumpled "The Awakening" book

okay fine, next stop, Popular
Popular : " Huh? Vampire Diaries?" *whispers to colleague "wei, English book ah?"*
he went to the "NON-FICTION" section to find, MY GAWDNESS.

seriously.. is it that much to ask for?
a freaking book? darn it.

skipz that, "Tao restaurant" ❤


I am so not having abalones or scallops anymore, for the time being.
I'm practically SICK of it.
ala carte buffet, all you can eat.
imagine that, heaven.
me & my sisters were like high, without alcohol.
one of the waiter thought tobacco sauce was, TOMATO sauce.
after observing our insanity, they were literally trying their best to avoid to serve our table.
some of them went to the other side of the restaurant, BWAHAHA.


oops, before "Tao", we were at "Austin Chase" chilling and playing board games.
yes, board games.
Uno cards, hilarious.
then JENGA, and fyi, it's like..


we played checkers,too.
I lost, mom & sis sacrificed my babies and let my second sis "eat" them.
boo, -.-

oh, how I wish I had a DSLR.
there were literally a sky full of stars, on the way home.
very beautiful indeed, romantic as well *grins*


&&ttyl❤ dinner time at nine.

stfu.

ash-ful

woke up feeling fatigue, gosh.
I couldn't feel myself until I was fully conscious.
plugged in my earphones, played " Help, I'm Alive" and got out of bed.
when I looked into the mirror, I saw the living dead.
I looked terrible, thank God I was back to normal after I showered.
it was really BORING in school, especially Maths.
I felt half awake and half in neverland.
suddenly, *BELL RINGS* hallelujuah thank you Jesus!
carried my oh so heavy bag, fasten my pace and rushed to the car.
I can't believe I fell asleep in the car, showed how tired I was.
and how RAWWRRRRRRRRing hungry I was.
I ate, hmm what did I have again?
hmm, OH, fish and soup.
after that, I had red bean sago soup, buttersugar bread and ice cream!
oh heavens, I so need to work out after this.

tuition time, dang it.
so I came in late, I sat wayy at the back, holy moly, the reeking,disgusting,disturbing smell.
no offence dude, I swore I could feel my barf coming up.
so when the teacher went out, I ran waayyy to the front and sat with a bunch of guys.
what a relieve, anything's better than that.
although there was some awkward moments when I switch places.
there was the "WOOOOOOOO~~" part, and the "omg, you're making him jealous" blah blah blah.
note, him refers to someone who likes me, eeks =.="

it was much much more fun sitting there, cheeky guys.
and NO, I am not flirting. that's like wrong, VERY wrong.

Rob is such a dork, in a funny way.
Edward looked like some trans in his first Twilight movie.
please don't kill me Edward fans.
to make it up to you, he looks great in Eclipse.
though he looked like an "AH GUA" when he did modelling.

momma seems fine with me watching Eclipse.
YAY, so I'm guessing she'll get over the smuggling Vampire Diaries when I get in from Penang.

hmm, long story short, pfft like I haven't said enough, don't really have a conclusion for this.

typeyoulaterlove.
&&huh?

huba huba ❤

oh my gosh, either there's something wrong with me or, yeah something's wrong with me.
major vampire obsession much!

holy crow, this is just crazy.
tsk tsk, at least I'm not the only one.
Mister Kevin, teehee, Alice Rimas Lee.
blahs, skipz.

had alot, aayy loooorrrtt of stocks in my house since yesterday.
mom and I managed to finish them today, except we ended up feeling like prawns.
yucks, prawns.

oh shizz, I don't wanna sing in assembly tomorrow, darn it.
this morning, when I woke up, I wrote :

"5 July, Monday.
Dear Diary,
good morning. Continuing what I said last night, I..

do you actually think I'd write my diary out in public?
bsh, ain't no fool, fool.
eepkz! I seriously don't know what to blog now.
it's like my head is filled with vampires
NOOO, anything but and that!

looking for a new theme for my phone, none of my favourites.
boohoo.

blehz enough for now.
&&oui?

peek a moo (:

Ian ❤



Paul ❤

hunks alert, goodness, sexy vampires.
BAHAs, they're MINE! pfft, me and my daydreaming.
season two of Vampire Diaries is gonna be out in Aug/Sept.
just one or two more months to go.
whee-hee!

gheez, homework to do
blob you later!
&&toodle-lu-dah-lu~

clueless.

today was really weird, I feel unsure of everything and of course, upset.
why? I wanna know,too.
typical mood swings perhaps.
it's July already, time flies, one moment I just got into high school, next I'll be graduating.
pfft pfft, screw that, anyway we took photos in school today.
for the school magazine, duh.

oh yeah, a few more songs I'd recommend.
All I Wanted by Paramore
Gravity by Sara Barellies
Cut by Plumb
Lovesick Mistake by Erin McCarley

Vampire Diaries, the books I mean, is waaaay different than the TV series.
I mean, Elena was suppose to be blonde?
Matt and Vicki weren't related?
Jeremy never existed?
Stefan was avoiding Elena?
Who's Meredith?

questions and more questions.
darn, again I say, different.

The Similarities of Twilight and Vampire Diaries

The Heroine

Elena Gilbert, The Vampire Diaries: Elena is beautiful, tan, and popular. Every boy wants her, every girl wants to be her. blahs

Bella Swan, Twilight: Although Bella doesn't recognize that she is beautiful, she is, but in a pale, brunette, tragic sort of way. Every boy wants her.

The Hero

Stefan Salvatore, The Vampire Diaries: very European and mysterious, with dark, curly hair, pale skin, and a certain something about him that makes every single girl at school want him. He'll have none of them, though, even feigning disinterest in Elena, who he feels an instant connection to. Feeds only on wild animals.
Edward Cullen, Twilight: very old-fashioned and mysterious, with copper-colored, curly hair, pale skin, and a certain something about him that makes every single girl at school want him. He'll have none of them, though, even feigning disgust at Bella, who he feels an instant connection to. Feeds only on wild animal, too.

hmm, though Vampire Diaries were out in 1991 I think.
and Twilight in 2002 maybe? just guessing.
switching my music frequency to... dark yet not gothic type.
relaxing, hmm, I still don't get what's bothering me.

oh! Metric, a band sang both for Vampire Diaries and Eclipse!
Help I'm Alive was from VD, and Eclipse (All Yours) from Eclipse.
awesome much, cool band.
Muse is nice, too.

alright alright, you all must be bored to death by my oh so long blog entry.
that's it, for now

&&farewell my love!

Vampire Diaries ❤

I couldn't help myself, I finished season 1.
season 2 is gonna be out in Aug/Sept.
boo, in the meantime, I'm looking for their soundtracks.
switch my music frequency to something else than the usuals I hear on the radio :D

a few I'd recommend.
We'll Be A Dream by We The Kings featuring Demi Lovato
Only One by Alex Band
Run by Leona Lewis
Wait It Out by Imogen Heaps
Help I'm Alive by Metric
When A Heart Breaks by Dave Barnes
Down by Jason Walker
these were the few I found nice so far.
there's like tons of songs to listen to, interesting.
some of them, dark yet relaxing.
at least it neutralizes my mood.

today, I finally learnt how to play Rain Down on the piano.
well sort of, I got the chords and the whatever-you-call-it-when-you-play-with-your-right-hand.
so yeah, it sounds alright, so I think I'm good for now.
pianos are nice, if you know how to play, that is.
if you're someone like me, try to stay away from it.
kidds, I'm not THAT bad, I think.

it sucks to open your wallet and see one dollar left in it.
so empty :(
urghh, I miss my fifties.
screw that.

just finished my homework and I'm off to bed!
my hands are freaking tired, I'm tired.
rawr, vampiressss.
twilight's on TV now, gosh.
Stefan is waaay hotter than Edward.

teehee.
&&goodbyenight.